I’ve been meaning to write, but I just don’t feel like it. Don’t get me wrong, I love to write. I love ripping out my soul and putting it on paper while it’s still bleeding. Putting it out there for the world to see is another story, but over the past few months, I just didn’t feel like writing. Most people will say, “Just push through it and do it,” and I tried. I stared at my computer for hours trying to think of something inspirational or noteworthy to say. Everything I thought of seemed trivial or trite. When you realize your world is ending, nothing seems good enough. I started a blog about content and stopped. I started another about dialogue. I hated it. I erased it, didn’t even save it for a later date. During this time, I learned a few things about my writing. Actually, it basically reiterated what I already knew: be genuine. If you force it, your readers are going to know. When you’re not genuine, readers aren’t going to believe you because you don’t even believe what you’re writing.
I think we sometimes need to take the time to step back and re-evaluate what we’re doing. I know a lot of people who say to push through it, keep writing, the muse will come back, and that might be true. If you do that, just remember that the stuff you’re writing should be taken at the value it is: pushing through times of self-loathing, through the times of guilt about not feeling like doing what you love. It should be put in a folder for you only where you can either come back to it at a later date, or used as an example of what not to do or whatever. Not everything we write will or should be shown to the world. Just like feelings and thoughts, some things should be kept private.
Did I write even though I didn’t feel like it? Yes. It was drivel. It was terrible prose from an overly-inundated mind. I deleted it…most of it. Once it was on paper and out of my mind, I didn’t need to see it again. Nor did I want to. Here’s what I want you to get out of this article: be genuine. If you can’t, keep going. Even if you don’t feel like it, get all the other stuff out of the way. Take a break. Come back when you’re ready, and hopefully, your readers will understand.